Day 13/100: In & Out (the Saddle) Personas

I got to thinking about the relationship between the differences of my in-saddle and out-of-saddle persona. 

When I am with a horse, especially in the saddle, I truly believe that I am the best version of myself. I am confident and happy and still and poised and cool and brave and full of life. It’s a feeling that I haven’t yet found out of the saddle — that level of comfortability in my skin, my voice, my person. 

I guess I don’t quite understand why this separation exists. Why obstacles and fears and worries and nervousness simply cannot penetrate in my in-saddle self. Bigger yet, why can these negative feelings so easily penetrate my out-of-saddle self? 

So, what does the horse bring to the equation for me? 

And does anyone else feel this way? I suppose this is a new line of thought that deserves honest exploration. Ahhh it’s interesting to think about. Besos. 

Day 6/100: It's Interview Time

As I reflect on what the first five days of this project have inspired and the even bigger number of days that remain, I am giddy with anticipation. The future conversations, quiet moments, revelations, exercises, and opportunities for growth… It’s all out there. Waiting to be explored, uncovered, demystified. 

I plan on interviewing two types of folks. The first will consist of people I know. The second group will be the strangers, hopefully consisting of Natural Horsemanship Professionals, Massage Therapists, Reiki Practitioners, Horse Trainers, Equine Guided Coaches, PATH Certified Instructors, and beyond. 

This is where you come into the picture. If you’d like to be involved in any capacity, let me know! We can talk, groom, walk, and even ride horses. We can talk about communication, connectedness, perspective, confidence, openness, and so much more. Because ALL of this can be accessed and explored through way of the horse. Neat! 

Also, if you have recommendations for any of equine professionals I listed above, I would love to get connected. People who have chosen to put the horse at the center of their life (professionally and otherwise) are especially interesting and I want to talk to every last one of them! Well, only the nice ones. KIDDING! (kind of) 

Okay, that’s all for now. Thanks, friends! 

Day 5/100: Minnesota Horse Expo

For this fifth day of the 100 Day Project, I checked out the Minnesota Horse Expo. Ahh, what a great event. Pals of the horse (of all ages and kinds and types and levels of crazy) came together to see many different breeds, learn valuable tools and tips in presentations, and buy all sorts of neato horse stuff.

Enjoy a little photo gallery from the day! We had a swell time! 

Day 2/100: Slow & Quiet

 

This was a delightful little day spent at the barn walking, thinking, connecting, and riding horses. Max, Mel, and Bill are all incredibly different, special, intelligent half-ton weirdos. I can’t wait for you to meet them.

Photographed above is Mel, a charming and sweet and boisterous 8-year-old Arabian gelding. Before settling down enough to take this photo, he had just shimmied his nose in the dirt, snorted and bounced his way down the hill, and leapt around the growing pasture — all while I walked beside him, a 6-foot lead-rope between us.

Allowing myself to slow down, breathe in the fresh air alongside Mel, and watch him voraciously chomp on grass, inquisitively spook at the sound of a nearby stream, and spin around in nature-inspired bliss, I was reminded of the authenticity of here and now. Being present.

Trust: A Journey with Horses

I started riding Arabian horses when I was 6 years old. It was a childhood built on sweet afternoons grazing in the grass, summers of traveling to horse shows, shiny show clothes, brilliant friendships, and most of all, transformational horses. I would call myself "one of the lucky ones." That is, I never had to leave my dream of horses in my childhood; I was lucky enough to carry it through my adolescence and now, early adulthood. It’s been nothing short of dreamy, really. Being so close to one of the original man-beast relationships—one of the oldest and boldest ofbonds—has been enlivening. 

There is truly something impactful in being on the back of a horse. 

They're big and powerful and intelligent and sensitive and quick and, at times, wonderfully unpredictable. Riding a horse is a lesson in timing, confidence, remaining calm, thinking logically, and most of all, trust. Why would a 1,000-pound animal with superior strength and speed listen to a human? Trust. They trust that you don't aim to harm them, that you will make sure no predators are around, that you are honest and good and on their team. 

Beyond these practical reasons for trusting a human, I believe that the trust shared between human and horse goes much deeper. We are, by nature, over thinkers. We fret about the future, get lost in our worries, and forget to appreciate beauty that surrounds us. To counteract this heightened sense of self-awareness, I think horses are able to share their gifts of being present, having open hearts, and being sensitive to energies. We need their sensibilities and lucky for us, they're very cool with sharing them.

And there it is—this mutual trust creates a bond between horse and human. It's a relationship that requires great patience and understanding and compassion. At the end of the day, it's an incredibly rewarding one. But now that I've spilled into a new area of appreciation for the horse, I can’t help but feel like I need to share the natural gifts of my equine friends with as many humans as possible. And in this feeling, I find my relationship with the horse rapidly evolving. It feels as if there is a whole world of discovery waiting. And I want to begin a journey to find it. 

It all begins with trust. On all sides. You will have trust in me to be honest and open to new experiences and good to the horses I touch. I will undoubtedly find a deeper trust within the horse and with the humans in which I connect. I vow to trust the journey and world it opens.

Just so we’re on the same page about this “journey,” I will share a few of the details. I plan on speaking to a wide array of experts in the fields of Equine Guided Education, natural horsemanship, Equine Massage, and many more, attending workshops and seminars to expand my knowledge of alternative approaches to a life with horses, and finding books and papers to further my understanding of this world.

This is the beginning of something awakening.

 It has been lovely to grow up in the Arabian horse world. The horses have given me so much. Now, I want to figure out a way to approach them in a new way. It’s time.

Within the show world, I want for the horses to have full lives that allow them the time and space to experience comfort and relief from their own anxieties. I also want to bring these horses and their owners closer, allowing them to have an opportunity to connect deeply for their mutual benefit. I want for people to understand the anxieties and quirks and triggers and comforts of their own horses. And because horses have a way of acting as emotional mirrors, revealing the inconsistencies and fears of the human working with them, realizations and growth are inevitable and lovely byproducts. 

As for the universe outside this tiny show world, I still need some time to ponder my hopes. But hey, that’s what the journey is for, right?